I want to crawl into a hole.

After sending out about 15 resumes, I realized. OH. I am sending out the one that is not as pretty and great and perfect as the other.

this is when you say "WHAT...!"

Yes. FANTASTIC. No wonder I am not getting emails back. Those people are like

"omg. this girl is SO dumb, she sent us THIS? She HAS to have something better.  This is like a COLLEGE resume that she did for a class to get an A.  How stupid does she think we are?"

As I sit in my corner like NOOOOOO!!!!! and of course I cannot just email them back like

"Wow! Sorry I am so dumb and unprepared and STUPID that I sent you that resume. Here is the actual one.. Oh and i promise that I will be a GREAT candidate for this position.."

YEAH RIGHT

UGH!!!!

At that moment I really badly wanted to go crawl in a hole and sink.  Even a REALLY deep staircase would be been effeicient.  Looking back now, theres this unknown stair situation by the cafeteria I eat at, called the Junction.  I very well could have gone down there, its exactly hole like.  It has all of the qualifications needed.
It is dark, deep, really scary, unknown, I have never seen anyone use it, and it is probably full of spider and cat poop.  It would have been great.  Well... as great as crawling in a hole and sinking could be when your sitting in a dark abyss full of poop from the annoying cats that just meow at night and make you want to throw something at them like an anchor or an anvil.  Maybe even a boulder or my bed would do too.

I need a job. I have 3 weeks until school is over, and I will start summer classes. Maybe I will take some beginner business class crap so I can be a little more knowledge about the whole business part instead of just drawing pictures and measuring hot models.

Anyway. My life as of right now, well 3 weeks. is ONE. HUGE. ?(QUESTION MARK! and I dont like it!!